Hard work

You know what is hard to do? Starting to work out again when you haven't in forever!! I hate starting over. I need to not quit and then I won't have this problem!

I'm trying to focus on my eating right now and slowly bring back my workouts. Right now it's all about crowding out. I can eat what I want but I have to eat all my "good" foods first.

That means everyday I will eat 3 fruits, one large salad with lots of raw veggies, a huge serving of steamed green veggies, and a half cup of beans. And if I am craving ice cream I can have some. I will put all my attention on adding in the good in the hopes that it will crowd out the bad.

Set backs

So I've had a little set back... I fell head first into some ice cream and staid there for far too long. Motivation was at an all time low the past few months. But I am happy to report that I have worked out every day this week!

Mind you these are not amazing hard core workouts but it's better than nothing!

I am trying to create new habits in my brain. I want to wake up and feel the same urgency to go to the gym as I feel to brush my teeth. It's a slow process but I'm making some progress.

The hard part is keeping the motivation going. Today I woke up and saw that I had gained 2 pounds this week!! This is hard to swallow when I have worked out and logged my food everyday. My eating was not perfect but it was an improvement over the week before, yet I gained weight.

For anyone who has struggled like I have you know that this can make you want to eat everything in sight while crying. A option I have chosen several times before. Currently I am trying to convince myself that although I am now at a new all time high weight I should be proud of my consistency with working out this week. Shifting my thoughts from trying to lose weight to trying to create healthy habits is hard. I have years of faulty thinking to rewire in my brain.